Longing to Stay Home

Today I found myself thinking a lot about being able to stay home with Tobin. I know a lot of moms out there love the freedom of being able to work...but I just find all of it draining. I love the people I work with and appreciate that I have a flexible job; I just can't get over the fact that I want to be home with my little guy. I can't say that I find my job incredibly fulfilling (creatively OR financially)...and I often feel like I'm not important. If I'm completely honest, I feel taken for granted sometimes. Blah. I shouldn't be so down. My hubs says we can try to figure out everything once taxes are all over. I would never again expect any Christmas or birthday presents if he told me I could stay at home with our boy!

I have to laugh sometimes when I think about how serious Tobin is most of the time. Always thinking, always trying to figure out how to do something. It's amazing. I'm so looking forward to when he decides to start talking; I have a feeling I'll be doomed! Dave is really looking forward to that as well. He'll never be quiet once he gets started. Already, he's a crazy man with his signing. All I ever see is the sign for "food" or the sign for "milk" (which kind of defaults as anything in his sippy cup). :D Now he also puts his hands up and out to sides as "all done" in his high chair. It's pretty cute. I'm surprised at how much his eating has slowed down. I mean, thank goodness, because that kid was a black hole for the first year of his life. What I thought was picky eating was actually just not being interested in eating much anymore.

I suppose that's enough for now. Time to switch FMA discs...and the Lunesta is kicking in anyway. :)